Al-Fatihah

Setelah sunyi utk beberapa hari, hari ni dapat jugak nak update blog ni.

Bapak telah pergi meninggalkan kami semua di pagi hari Sabtu, 14 Nov 2009.

We rushed back but hujan all d way from Puchong to Pontian. Nak speeding pun kinda dangerous jugaklah.

Received sms from my sis kat kampung that they will bring jenazah to surau for the prayers. I told her not to wait for us, if they want to proceed after Zohor. So as mentioned by Cekpen, we just missed him.

Rasa sedih dah tentu but ada jugak rasa that is the best for bapak. Masa I stay kat kampung from Monday to Friday tu pun, blister yg besar kat punggung dah pecah. Dan banyak lg yg kecik2 dah start keluar kat belakang badan dia. Dah terbaring macam tu for 6 days, mmg kebarangkalian nak kena bed sore sangat tinggi la kan. I was thinking nak carikan ripple mattress, but my sis said not necessary.

Pagi sabtu tu sebelum bertolak ke kampung i pergi klinik dulu ambik ubat sakit mata for myself and my maid. Yep, both of us infected and yg quite bad jugak le. Takut jugak jangkit balik kat my kids n cekpen.

Mak seems like boleh terima kenyataan masa hari sabtu tu. My PIL pun ada datang ziarah lewat petang tu with Ateh n Bang Teh. Mak boleh sembang lg walaupun nampak sedih.

Tapi masa malam kedua tahlil arwah, keadaan mak dah berubah.
Dia dah taknak bercakap. Taknak makan. Dia akan duduk tak bergerak dan pandangan kosong tembus dinding. Mak cuma beristighfar all d time.

Itulah my mom. Dia akan di landa kemurungan pada keadaan tertentu.
Selalunya bila ada majlis besar kat rumah mcm wedding kitorang semua.
Mak tak boleh risau, ramai orang, kerja banyak, rumah bersepah....bila semua ni datang at one go, and she cannot take it, dia akan loss.

Mak akan blame herself for everything around her. Sedih.
Dulu I tot dia cuma demam2 gitu jek. Now I know better. Seriously I did not know that she had this problem masa muda lg. Baru 2 hari lepas tau. My brother la citer dulu dia yg jaga mak, bagi makan ubat semua masa mak sakit. Dia pun baru sekolah rendah lg. Me and my sista tak lahir pun lg.

I do hope mak cepat sihat. Promised to her kami akan balik lg masa raya Haji.